I don't study enough.
I study too much.
I don't know how to study.

I'm trying really hard to not think about the fact that I'm not good enough for you.

It's really hard to stay strong when you keep thinking of me as weak.
Just like how it's really hard to keep standing up when you know you're going to be pushed down even harder.

Is it all in my mind--all this negativity?

I can't remember the last time I've ever done anything for myself.
Maybe it's the memory issue... maybe it's actually been a really long time.

Stupid girl hormones.