That song still reminds me of you. (:

#100happyday challenge

"Then you would have 100 pictures of just me. *smiles*"

Touche.

Valentine's Day

I've been wanting flowers a lot recently and Cindy bought me (us?) flowers from the farmer's market after our weekly lunch date.

Chocolate: well, I was already proposed to by a chocolatier. Can't get better than that. LOL

& for today: no date, no worry. Worked out instead. Finished a Nike session. (: #proud

"We put shampoo in our pig."

It seems that in the past, there were large parts of your identity you were forced to leave behind when you traveled, and in the absence of those things, not only did other people forget you, but you forgot yourself. And rather than being a entirely negative thing, maybe this had the effect of softening that identity, of making you define yourself less from the books you'd read or the connections you'd had with others. Maybe one of the side effects of travel, and for some the main objective, was and still is to peel back some of those layers of identity, so that you can see that the whole notion isn't built on anything solid or fixed to begin with. And maybe if you see your identity as less fixed, then you're more open to change, to reinvention, more open to the world as it crashes down on the shore at your feet.

-Jack Cheng

Cynical Idealist

I always think people have ulterior motives. I think so much that I come to convince myself I know. I know people are evil. But I don't blame them. I believe everybody was born a clean slate and sometimes those slates just get damaged. They face problems I couldn't possibly understand and so I don't put those people at fault. Instead, I see the beauty in them. I think everybody has something that makes them wonderful. I just gotta discover it if it's not so visible.

So I'm cynical... To an extent.

But I'm also a target of cynicism.

I'm one of the people whose actions cynics think are for the purpose of ulterior motives. And sometimes, they're right. But more often than not, I do things because it's the right thing to do. Because it's the thing I feel should be done. Because I want to inspire people to be their best. I believe in morals. I believe that everybody should be the best person that they can be.

That's something I can proudly say I've never questioned.

Some may say I'm impractical and some may say I'm foolish. I know what they're thinking. Don't get me wrong;  I know there's bad people out there. I simply believe they have the potential to be good. 

Too many fairytales, I know. <3

Who's to say you're not?

Sometimes I think so much that I start to believe myself.
& that's not necessarily a bad thing, say, if I'm thinking positive thoughts.
But at times, more than some, those thoughts are negative.
Then I feed myself positive thoughts again to drive away the negative thoughts,
but it's too late.
I'm already thinking those negative thoughts.
& I go in so many circles, feeding on positivity, thinking about negativity, spreading more positivity...

I forget who I am.

Maybe I'm a filter.
Maybe we all are.