Terrible Things <3

"So don't fall in love,

There's just too much to lose."

Looking back,
you were worth it. (:
You taught me and I learned a lot, surprisingly enough.
Thanks for everything!

Every now and then I have these moments where I'm just so fed up with everybody and everything. Sure, you can blame it on my period because I'm a girl and that's what happens every month but sometimes, it's just because there's too much to handle at once. See, a small thing ticks me off and then little by little, I remember every single little thing possible that's wrong with my life and because my mind actually thinks pretty fast when it wants to, in a couple of minutes, I'd have crashed and burned. If somebody were to tell me all this, I'd tell them to take a breather and relax. I'd tell myself to calm down and just stop thinking for a while. It's like I'm constantly carrying all this weight on my shoulders... But if I let go, people will get hurt.

Blah, not making much sense anymore... If I made any sense to start with.

Sometimes it just feels good to sit out in the cold. Eventually, you feel nothing. You become numb. Callous.

The Human Factor

Because software like SMARTWORKS is extremely unintelligent.

Rant rant rant.

Back to reality.

Chem...

Physics...

Brain juices.

#bioE

Mini dream?

This Chinese lady was being anal about the lining of her nuclear bombing tunnel which she was building right outside of my dorm. I woke up and saw that Sukhpreet had left a message for me on her desk that she carved saying they left to the mall or something and it was signed "Mami Sukhpreet." ♥ Standing in the doorway was my dad who I was ecstatic to see come surprise me. He asked me if I was ready and go and I was confused only to find a whole bunch of my family and friends at my doorway holding out different ingredients for me. I think Dylan had like 10 cloves of garlic. The rest held like packages of ramen, onion, etc. They were saying goodbye to me. But I was so confused. I wasn't done with finals yet; I still had a few more weeks to go. My dad forced me to go and I asked him if he wanted to take the scenic route out. He told me to show him all the "trees" in the forest from the Stuart Collection. We detoured and stopped at Starbucks where I ran into Neesha who was eating this really soft Roti Bun-like thing--like, it was the hybrid of a snickerdoodle and a bun, which was what I told her and then she laughed. Except it was so good, I ate it all. So I bought her another one.

The end. No time to analyze. Peace.

See, only during times like this do I think of him. /:

Meh.

"Fool me once, shame on you.

Fool me twice, shame on me."

I refuse to be a fool.

They say you're a freak when we're having fun
Say you must be high when we're spreading love
But we're just living life and we never stop
We got the world.

Icona Pop was actually amazing live. ♥

Feeling cruddy about myself.

Merp.

Stop thinking? /:

To the future me, I'm sorry.

Lately I've  been extremely mad at myself and this is not healthy. Just now, I realized that I forgot to submit, let alone, WRITE, my microwriting and it was even postponed for us. I should have studied harder for that physics quiz. I should not have taken that nap. I should not have taken pictures. I should not have thought and done stupid things while there were still assignments for me to do and notes for me to study. I was supposed to study really hard so that I'd have time for Julina when she came. What happened--I really don't know, but I really hate myself right now. I regret not maintaining my focus. I am disappointed in myself and there's nothing I can do about it but work harder now.

I just hope it's not too late.

What my tummy looks like right now...

Chem Confucius

"Just because you're unstable doesn't mean you decay as fast."

^I don't think Professor Hoeger intended for it to have meaning aside from chemistry context, but I felt it applied in real life too.

Just because I get relapses every now and then doesn't mean I break down easily. (: #staystrong

OMG, Arlene is too cute.

"FREE PIZZA AT 8PM IN THE DOGGHOUSE. AND BE ENTERED INTO A RAFFLE TO WIN A FREE TV!"

"... What's the catch?"

"... Theremaybesomeeducationalcomponent."

My RA, ladies and gentlemen. <3

Identity Crisis?

Dear Blogger,
Today we did an activity in CAT discussion to help describe our identity and define the categories in conjunction with our body. Of the seven categories, we were to order them from least to most influential and here's how I ordered mine.

• Political affiliation: N/A
  Because I've never cared and nothing's made me care about it yet. What happens happens. I know, poor model citizen.
• Religious affiliation: Agnostic
  Because, again, it doesn't matter to me. Fate.
• Race: Asian
  Because race doesn't really define who I am, but others are quick to judge me for it because of my physical appearances.
• Other (Zodiac Sign): Aries
  Because I like how sometimes fate describes me so well, but then again, doesn't. I would know, I used to write horoscopes in middle school. x_O"
• Gender: Female
  Because I am treated how I am because of it. I like it and I don't. It's complicated.
• Nationality: American
  Because I'm loud and proud to have been born here.
• Ethnicity: Vietnamese
  Because it really defines who I am. (As of this moment anyway, because we're constantly changing, yeah?)

In retrospect, I was kinda sorta really vague about everything. Hehe... xD But hey, at least I finally blogged about something somewhat significant? (:

So... I can't stop watching videos of sea otters. I wish I was a sea otter...