I've been delaying "the talk" for so long.
Partially because I feel we don't need to set up a time and date to talk.
But mostly because I'm afraid.
I'm afraid we'll talk about my future and I won't know where I'm going or what I'm doing anymore. I'm afraid of deciding... making the wrong decision... regretting. I'm afraid that I'll realize that you weren't as lenient as I thought and that you've been telling me what to do this entire time and without you, I'll be nothing. I'm afraid of so many possibilities I've been trying to avoid.
If I were to give myself advice, I'd tell myself to just do it. Or better yet, make it count. I'd face my fears for there is nothing to fear but fear itself. I'd do the right thing because I can only imagine now but when the time comes, I'll know. Better to make mistakes than have regrets?
