When your roots are hypocritical, judgmental, and downright discriminating, it's difficult to believe in your own morals and grow to be the person you want to be. As much as you try to shed yourself of the bad, you're always paranoid that deep down inside, you can never get rid of it completely because it's a part of you--because it's in your blood. Then you think, how and why are you a this person? Did these cynical people raise you to be the opposite to right their wrongs? Did you grow up and decide this yourself? Maybe you're actually one of them, but going through a morally rebellious stage.
Sigh... because family.
