& this is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person, but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself
Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same.

I guess it's just the cycle of life, growing up and allathat, but I really hate all these revelations. It confuses me how you used to take me out to places, to do things and now you want me to do the same for your kids so you can get drunk and have an excuse to forget life's worries. But I'm not done being a kid yet. I'm still a kid. I'm still going places and doings things, just not with you anymore. So did you do all those things for me because you loved me or because you knew that one day, I would feel obliged to return the favor? Because right now, it seems as if you're using me and I don't like being used. I want to give you the benefit of the doubt but I don't like being taken advantage of. I'm sorry to everyone I have ever made feel this way because I hate this feeling.

I hope you know I do everything because I actually love you, not because I expect something in return. When I make time for you, it's because you're important to me. Please don't push me because then you'll just lose me.

I don't even remember where I was going with this but it made sense in the shower... Mini rant/rage over! Anywho, g'night & let's hope tmrw's a better day! <3