Ideal Day

1. Up by 6:30 A.M.
2. Brain teasers in bed (i.e., Lumosity, Elevate).
3. Drink cup of water. (Aim for 8 cups a day.)
4. Meditate for 5 min.
5. Exercise while listening to fave music atm.
6. Research job positions (or something equally career-proactive).
7. Work on creative project (i.e., lettering, canvas art, jackets, love album).
8. Clean. Let shIT go.
9. Plan out next day/week/month/year/life.
10. Journal.
11. Read.
12. Bed before midnight.

When the going gets tough

1. Overwhelmed by all the emotions. Not sure how to process everything. Breaks down and cries within minutes because the worst is a possibility.
2. Get over yourself, Emily. You're better than this. Worrying does no good. Figure out how to solve this problem.
3. Tries to get back on the horse and determined to fix whatever's broken.
4. Can't concentrate because emotions still clouding judgment.
5. Understands that the mourning period cannot be rushed because it is different for everybody. Just because you want to doesn't mean you can. Sometimes you have to just breathe.
6. But what if in the time I need to breathe, circumstances worsen? Then it's my fault that I didn't recover fast enough.
7. ...

And it goes on and on, sometimes repeating itself. Until I can't handle all the thoughts anymore and I cast everything aside and move on from the situation, never fully resolving how I feel.

Tenacity, in more ways than one.