Saturday, August 30, 2014

We were madly in love, but suddenly you left and I had no idea why. Someone just told me you had gotten on a plane and flown away but from what? Me? Us? What had I done wrong? I didn't know what to do; I was a sack of wet potatoes. All I knew how to do was cry. My best friend came over, put one hand on my shoulder, and told me, "Go to him." So I did. (Now that I think about it, that would be a completely illogical action to take. That's why, ladies and gentlemen, this is a dream.) On the way there, sadness morphed itself into anger--ferocity! Who the hell gave you permission to uproot my happiness in an instant? I don't even know how I got into the plane. I just remember storming to your assigned seat, then losing all sense of motion when I saw you sitting there. Your head was down so you didn't see me at first, so I could have gotten off the plane. You wouldn't have noticed. I could have just left and pretended like nothing had happened. But my legs wouldn't give. I couldn't go forward, couldn't reverse; my feet were glued to the ground--until the flight attendant asked me to take my seat, that is. Caught by surprise, I fumbled and almost fell onto the man two seats in front of you--that's when you decide to look up. (Of course.) I don't remember what happened next--a series of silences, stutters, unfinished sentences--but before I could say anything comprehensible, you took me into your arms and I was home again.

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I entered the restroom with an urgent need to pee but the first stall was kind of gross looking, so I kept searching. The second stall was flowing with feces and the rest of the stalls seemed occupied. I returned to the first stall.

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We were at some kind of convention in the wild west and suddenly, the apocalypse happened. As in, roads started to crack and people started killing each other. I told my parents to run and they did, but then I was caught by this really big man who was a teacher(?). I just respected him a lot but he was trying to kill my family, so I took one of his knives and stabbed him in his arm or leg--somewhere to slow him down but not kill him, but he just looked at me and smiled. Shocked by his nonchalant reaction, I withdrew the dagger and stabbed him in the same spot again but he still didn't respond. I started to run and caught up to my family, but somehow, the man and his accomplice was right behind me and captured me. He was about to slit my throat but then some ominous voice echoed, "Don't do it. You know she'll kill you back if you do. Just leave her be." With that, he dropped the knife and I let out a sigh of relief.



(There were more but can't remember anymore. Each time I woke up, I had the intention of going back to the previous dream to find out what happened next, but it's like my mind was telling me to move on. Off to the next adventure I go!)

Sunday, August 24, 2014

fate at its finest

Last Christmas or some Christmases ago, somebody gave me this laptop case and I really didn't like, mostly because it's for a 16" and my prior baby was only 12"(?) So, it was just kind of useless to me. The case was stashed away and forgotten and my beloved malfunctioned and my uncle sprang a new laptop on me.

Then yesterday when I was cleaning the closet out, I found it again and just kind of felt sigh-what-am-i-going-to-do-with-this-now. The tags were all ripped up so I cut them off and when I brought it into my room... Lo and behold, it fits my current fatty of a laptop and is now my new laptop case.

Not sure if that'll make sense to me 10 years from now. I'm a little rusty with writing, but it's like Life is my own personalized "Fortunately, Unfortunately" book and I'm just really happy when chapters end with Fortunately.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

What to do when the peacekeeper cannot keep her own peace?

Friday, August 8, 2014

I purposely fell 33 times today.

For science, not for love.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Going through memory lane, I found a list titled "Questions needed to be answered:" and here it is, word for word. I'd like to remember what elementary / middle school me was thinking. xD

  1. Why can you poop what you eat but can't eat what you poop?
  2. Are farandolae and mitchondria (spell check) real? Is it proven?
  3. Is it true that we are not the only livings in the universe?
  4. Have you ever read A Wrinkle in Time, A Wind in the Door, and Many Waters? What do you think of them?
  5. Why do people die?
  6. Whats the point of living if you know you're going to die?
Anybody got answers?

Sunday, August 3, 2014

This weekend, I spent a lot of time with the only immediate(?) family I have on my dad's side and it surprised me at first that they invited me to go watch the movies with them, because I rarely ever hang out with them... (I don't think I've ever watched a movie with them. Ever. x_O") Anywho, Guardians of the Galaxy surprised me because I didn't expect it to be that good. I laughed so many times (AND I NEVER LAUGH AT SCREENS. Fine, I do. But rarely.) & I almost cried! (Okay, we established that I cry pretty easily too. But still. There were some very emotional moments. For me.)

Anywho, it took me half the movie to realize Bautista played Drax and when it finally hit me, it's like she was there with us again. Uniting us all. It was a warm, fuzzy feeling, like she brought us together even though it was coincidental, but still. He was one of her favorite wrestlers and we haven't really done anything together since then. (Okay, none of this probably makes any sense to y'all right now, but that's okay. Ten years from now, I'm pretty sure I'll still remember what I'm talking about.) It reminded me that she's watching over us, pulling us closer together because we're family. <3

Don't worry. I'll do my best to take care of him. I won't forget my promise to you.
Why do people get overly sensitive when discussing topics that question their judgment? Are they embarrassed to admit their faults? Is this just a human thing? Maybe I'm not approaching the subject gently enough... Merp. Tell me what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm too blunt so they feel like they're being attacked? Sigh, I wish people would communicate more. #hypocritical